Fucking nightmare.

So i think i might have made a mistake in moving back home. Now i really feel like I should have stayed in Springfield and gotten an apartment and just thoughed out the rest of the year.

Dont you think that if your daughter was moving back home that you would get the spare room cleared out and ready for her before she got home? But no, I had to make them do it finally.

And another thing is I dont feel at home. I have felt so uncomfortable and not welcome. My parents haven't been get along very well (I'll just leave it at that), so it hasnt been the best week so far. I dont know how much longer I can take it

Chelsey if you were serious about getting an apartment sometime in the future, i might just take you up on that offer.

I'm super worried about Kenny. Unlike some break up's i dont hate my ex (since we didnt break up on bad terms). I checked on him yesterday to see how he was doing, he said he wasnt doing very good so I'm sure he's still not doing the best. I want to be there for him so bad, i wish he would call or text me. But I feel like I've talked to him to much so I should let him talk to me this time.

UGH!

Hello Union.

Well....here I am, back in Union. I wish i could say home sweet home, but not so much.

I feel really uncomfortable in my own house. I cant stand it. I guess I had made home in Springfield, but now thats gone.

I had to say goodbye lastnight, and that was the worst and hard thing I have ever done. Walking away hurt more than anything.

I dont have a room here yet. I thought my parents would have gotten it ready before I came home, but nope. I'm in the spare room where theres so many things in the room you can hardly walk.

I miss even more now that I am 2 1/2 hours away. I'm miserable, and I think I will be for awhile.

The worst feeling in the world...

is a broken heart.

So I may not be writting for awhile. My boyfriend of 3 years and I broke up Thursday officially.

I have decided to move back to my home town. I dont have any friends here in Springfield, the only one I have will be moving back to our hometown in December. If I had friends here I would stay and get my own apartment....and hopefully rekindle things with Kenny. I want to stay here more than anything to see if we could still patch things up, honestly i think we would if I stayed. But unfortunatly, i cant do this alone. I would be miserable by myself because i know Kenny and I wouldnt be seeing much of each other for awhile.

I'm not quitting school, but i do think I'm going to take a semester off and start back up next fall at UMSL in St. Louis.

So I made up my mind about moving back pretty quickly but i feel like it's the best thing. And I've talked to quite a bit of people who think this would be the right thing for me to do too.

I'm not giving up on Kenny and I....theres no way i can. Deep down I know that he is the one, I just hope someday he realizes the same thing....but i can only hope.

Halloween is over

Well of course, Halloween is over so it's time to change my layout, which i have. So I put up a Thanksgiving one or course!

This is me in my costume, It doesnt show everything but its the only picture i have:

Halloween was kind of a dissapointment. The pub crawl wasnt as fun as it was last year and we couldnt find anything to do after. Sunday was fun though, we did a scavanger hunt with some of our friends, but i ended up screwing up the end of the night.

So it's almost time to register for spring classes, i'm actually really suprised at how fast the semester has been going by. I've already got my classes picked out, so here they are: Political Sociology, Social Movements, Statistics, Survey of Astronomy (i think). From my calculations I only have to take 12 credit hours my last 2 semesters.

This last month has been a rough one. I'm not going into to details but I'll just say it hasnt been the best.

Hollister started playing Christmas music last week. It pissed me off because I hate how early they are playing the music now. It makes me upset because I do like Christmas music, but i like to hear it at Christmas time, not around Halloween and Thanksgiving. By the time Christmas comes now, I'm sick of hearing it.

As of right now the only reason I'm excited for Christmas is because it's the next time i should be able to go home. I'm not going home for Thanksgiving cause I'm going to work and hopefully get off for Christmas. I would rather go home for Christmas than Thanksgiving.

Bleh.

Nevermind.

Ok, so I ended up buying a costume yesterday. My attempt at finding an old prom dress to make into a witches dress failed, i didnt find anything. So I went to Wal Mart and found this Greek goddess costume and I didnt think it looked to bad. I bought a costume at Wal Mart causet it's only $20. I'll buy a cheaply made costume for $20, but not for $50.

This is what it looks like:

The head piece kinda sucks so i might find another one. Also i have to find shoes to go with it...which might be tricky cause i really dont want to wear heels.

Oh, and i decided against being a referee cause i didnt want to end up ruining my uniform for work....plus i really didnt want to be a referee for Halloween.

Thats it!

New job = back up Halloween costume

So yes, i have another job. But have no fear, i still work at the candy stand. I now have a second job at Lady Foot Locker. If some of you havent been to Lady Foot Locker, they wear the referee outfit as their uniform. Soooooo if I cant find a dress to work with for a witch costume (which is what I want to be) I'm going to wear my uniform and be a referee. I would be so comfy, wearing black pants and tennis shoes. All i would have to buy is a whistle.

I only work at Lady Foot Locker one day a week so far. But I have a feeling I'll be there longer than i thought. I thought i was just going to be there for the holiday season but i dont think thats the case. I heard that the candy stand probably wont be open past Christmas. So I think my boss at the candy stand got me the job at Lady Foot Locker because of that. This sounds confusing. Sorry.

I cant wait for next weekend, i get to go home. I dont have much going on excpet for Sunday. I would like to go to the Winieries in Augusta. I love going over there in the fall, its so pretty. My parents and I normally go over every October and first we stop an apple orchard and get apples, they have a bunch of stuff to do for kids. Then we go to Augusta and my parents get wine (I finally got to get wine last year) and we got homemade bread from the Bread Shed....but now the Bread Shed is closed :(. Sunday we have the Pumpkin Party with Kennys family and then I have my cousins baby shower (I'm super excited for that).

Well I dont have much else to talk about. Hope you enjoy my Halloween background :)

Finding jeans = fail for Taletha

So I've been to like 10,000 places this week to find jeans, and I have only found 1 pair i like, which brings me up to having 3 pairs of jeans. I need a couple more if i want to make it through winter.

I've worked everyday this week, and I finally have tomorrow off, which will be spent with Kenny. I had to work Thursday which was our anniversary so we are going out to dinner tomorrow night. I'm so excited for relaxing tomorrow during the day too.

So I have no clue if anyone else has even heard of this movie, but I definently have. This was a childhood favorite of mine and I always watched it with my dad. The animation is super out of this world, but its so cool. It's a story about a boy named Oblio who finds himself in a world where everything is pointed (even the peoples heads), so he wears a pointed hat to fit in....thats all i remember of the story, i know theres more to it.
My dads birthday is November 13th, and I totally just ordered this for his birthday. I was thinking about it a couple of weeks ago and i thought this would be a great suprise to give to my dad. We use to have it on VHS and i think we lost it. I cannot wait to give it to him!

School is kicking my ass. I failed my chemistry test this week (oops). But I can bring it back up as long as I get 10's on the rest of my quizzes, and the good thing is we can take them as many times as want.

So I dont really have much more to say, I've been to busy for anything exciting to happen this week.