New Years...

So Christmas has come and gone and i was honestly glad to see it gone. This year just didnt feel like Christmas, i wasnt happy and felt alone. And the sad thing is im not looking that fowards to New Years. I'm always excited about going out on New Years eve, but not this year. I did get a lot of things I needed for my apartment for Christmas which is good, i liked my presents :).

So for the New Years resolution. Everyone makes this resolution and i make it every single year and never go through with it, but this year its going to happen. My resolution is to of course loose weight. I have gained so much weight and i am soooo unhappy about how i look. I lost about 20 pounds my senior year of high school and since 2008 i gained it all back. I call it the boyfriend weight, cause i was in a relationship since 2007 so i didnt pay attention to the way i look since i had someone who accepted me for who i was. I started to become unhappy about my weight over the summer but never did anything about it, but now i am actually going to do something about it.

The first step is to quit drinking soda ONCE AND FOR ALL. That is my biggest down fall is soda, espcially since my favorite is Dr. Pepper (dark soda is worse than white soda). When i lost all my weight in 2006 i went down to drinking 1 soda a day (i was drinking like 4 or 5 a day before then). I also stoped snacking, only had 1 serving when it came to meals and never ate past 8 pm. I'm not going to have a lot of money for groceries so i dont plan on buying snack foods, i also dont plan on keeping soda in my apartment either.

Second step is of course exercising. I have a work out facility in my apartment complex so i will start using that. I also plan on ordering Zumba DVDs. If you havent heard of that, its pretty much an arobic workout where you dance. This is becoming very popular where i am from and they offer classes at a gym every week. It claims that you loose 1,000 calories in one workout and you workout for an hour. Everyone who has done it says its a lot of fun so i want to try it. I dont have anyone to go to a class with in Springfield so im just going to get the DVDs.

I'm ready to start doing this. A friend of mine from my hometown has lost a lot of weight this past year (it was her resolution for 2010) and she looks amazing. She kind of gave me the encouragement to do this, just by seeing how good she looks now. So i am going to start this when i get settled into my apartment. I'll keep updates on my progress on here.

Go away snow!

So it seems to snow at the worst possible times. Yes, i do like it to snow around Christmas cause i love the whole white Christmas thing, but this year i could have done without snow, i just didnt it want it this year. But who knows, maybe we will go for a walk tonight (i can only hope).

I finally got a straight answer from him on why he hasnt talked to me lately. I just really wished he would have taken me and my feelings into consideration. I told him he needed to put himself in my shoes here cause i was so confused as to what was going on. He got a little upset when I asked him and he said "why do i have to keep explaining?" I of course had asked him before but didnt really get a good answer. Sorry but " i hadnt thought about it" is not a good enough asnwer.

This month has not been fair. You cant talk to someone everynight for 2 weeks saying all these cute things and pouring your heart out with these words of regret and then just stop talking to me out of nowhere. If something was and/or is going on you need to atleast say something to me so im not completely lost like I am now. And if those werent words of regret that night then you need to explain to me what they were.

So its Christmas eve and I havent even started wraping presents yet. I dont have much, i have jus been avoiding doing it. I just got to unwrap my Christmas eve present and it was a Charlie Brown tree :). Im sure a lot of people have seen the Charlie Brown trees at Walgreens, I like it :).

Well thats really all I have to say. Hope everyone has a good Christmas :)

So what happened?

Do you ever feel like something is going great, things seem to be looking up and theres a chance that something possitive is going to happen soon? THEN all of a sudden things do a compete turn around and it's completely different? Well thats happened to me this past week. I think someone needs to tell me what is going on. I was telling myself to be patient and just see how this plays out, but i cant take it anymore. I'm so confused and I dont think I can do this. As you can see I am a very impatient person.

The past week has been super crappy. I have started walking backwards with the process of getting over this break up. I never want to get out of bed, all I want to do is sleep anymore (but it doesnt help that I have nothing to do during the week). Also, it hasnt helped that my parents haven't been the way they use to be and I'm not use to that at all. That has gotten me down too and the only person I want to talk about my parents is Kenny.

So the only positive news I have to report about is that my cousin was indused this morning to have her baby. As of an hour ago she was only dialated to a 4 and she went in at like 5 this morning. I guess she is going to be in labor for awhile. So I will hopefully get to meet my 2nd cousin tomorrow. I'm not sure what they are naming him yet, but I will probably post a picture on here later.

In a baking mood.

I have been wanting to bake for a week now. I always hear people say how much a pain baking is, but i love to make cookies and cakes and all kinds of things. I'll admit I only have a couple of recipes that I have made, but im determined to have more. I've been looking at recipes today, I have a recipe box that I have yet to fill so I'm trying to fill it (but now just with baking recipes).



Here are some of the cookies I make (I didnt take these pictures by the way):

Peppermint Snowballs

I make these at Christmas time, however I'm not sure if I'll be making them this year.


Lemon Coolers

I was so happy when i found this recipe! Nabisco had a branch called Sunshine and they made cookies called lemon coolers when i was a kid and I absolutley loved them. They stoped making them and I have tried to find them but no luck. This recipe is actually called Lemon Snowballs, but I like Lemon Coolers better.

Chocolate Chip Pumpkin Cookies.

I make these around Halloween and Thanksgiving. My Grandma cant wait for this cookies every year. I gave her the recipe but she says they never turn out the way mine turn out. I love to hear that :)

Cake Balls

Now, I have not made these yet but I am dieing to make them. When i worked at the candy stand just a month ago we sold these and they were sooooooooo good! I cant wait to make them, but i feel like I need an occasion to make them for because it makes so many.

If anyone out there would like the recipes all you have to do is go go allrecipes.com (no, none of my recipes are original) and search for these cookies (remember to search for Lemon Snowballs if you want the lemon coolers recipe). Or I can share them! I love baking, i might just make some tonight :)

Well it snowed

So it snowed here in Union Saturday night, but it was the big snow that im dreading. It covered the grass and streets and the roads were pretty slick. The big snow I'm talking about is where the snow is coming down really hard and its so beautiful and the your prediction is 3-5 inches. This big snow has signifigance thats why I'm not looking forward to it.

You dont know how bad I want to spout off about some things that have been happening, but I'm to scared to post it on here. Remember that confusing I was talking about a couple of posts ago? Well its still there and its gotten worse. I keep telling myself: Good thing, good things come to those who wait. Just be patient, but good god this is going a bit to far.

Chelsey i need that sleep over, i need to get a lot of this stuff off my chest. I'm going crazy.

The Temperature is droping.

So it is getting colder and colder by the hour here in Missouri. I have a Weather Channel desktop thingy on my desktop that i can click on to tell me the weather and theres an icon on the bottom right corner of my computer that tells me the temperature, and everytime i look it has droped. We are suppose to get 1-2 inches of snow, but it hasnt started yet.

So I am becoming more and more obsessed with makeup. I have been wanting to find a good pallete with a bunch of different colors in it so i can take that when i travel instead of putting a bunch of different eye shadows in my makeup bag. I have also wanted to buy some stuff from Sephora for the longest time, but its just so expensive. I may pay the money though to get a good eyeshadow pallete.

These are the ones I have picked out: The Beauty Encyclopedia: Basic Eye Edition $5 at eyeslipsface.com


Smashbox Eye Wish Palette $45 at Sephora

Urban Decay Urban Ammo Eye Palette $36 at Sephora

Now of course I'm sure a lot of people would say to go for the cheapest one, which isnt a bad idea cause i love E.L.F. cosmetics, but i've always wanted to get some makeup from Sephora. So I may spend some Christmas money on that :).

I can not wait to move back to Springfield (i swear i never thought i would hear myself say that). I am ready to go back to school and work, I am so bored here in the house all the time. All of my friends I hang out with here work during the day and one has classes at night during the week, so I dont really get to do anything. So I'm ready to be busy again.

Things are going ok with me, gotten a bit better so thats always good =)

Hope your enjoying the Christmas background!

I have a home

Well i got accepted for an apartment, thank goodness! I'll be moving back to Springfield January 3, but then I'll just be turning around and coming home that weekend for my friends birthday. Oh well!

I have been so down lately. Theres all kinds of problems going on around me and I cant stand it anymore. I dont seem to have anyone to talk to about it either. I text my 2 friends who I normally talk to and they send me 1 text in reply and thats it. I dont have anyone to hang out with during the week either which doesnt help.

It's still 2 weeks until Christmas, but as the days go by and it gets closer I realize more and more that I'm going to be alone this Christmas. Yeah, I'll have family but it's not same. Having a special someone to spend the holidays has been amazing the past 2 years, and now I dont have that anymore. Plus I had grown very close to his family, and I wont get to see them anymore. Thanksgiving was hard, but I think Christmas will be much harder.

Confusion

I have so many thoughts swirling around in my had its not even funny. I'm a believer of the saying "Good things come to those who wait" but I am not the most patient person in the world. I want to know whats going on, but I do hope It's positive, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up but i think they are starting to slip up there.

I feel like the first big snow is just around the corner....and I'm dreading it. I wish it wouldn't snow this year, that would be great. Seeing as I live in Missouri though, I'm sure it will snow big a couple of times this year.

I am starting to get a little more excited about Christmas, sort of. Mitchell has a Christmas program this Thursday and I'm happy I get to see that, if i was still going to school I would be missing it. One of the songs they are singing is Feliz Navidad and he gets to play the maracas :). One thing I do always look forward to every year is watching A Charlie Brown Christmas, I never miss it.

So those cups I talked about in the last post, i ended up returning them and getting a different set. I didnt like the others ones very much.

The end.

Money troubles.

So im starting to completly freak out about money. I have spent all of the money in both of my checking accounts and I am coming really close to maxing out my credit card. I applied for unemployment and got denied, which i was really counting on that. I still want to buy my mom one more Christmas present, I need someway to pay my credit card bill, and I keep thinking of more things I need for my apartment. ugh. I'm sure my dad will give me money, but my parents are having some pretty bad money troubles of their own.

I got a little lucky and go was able to buy a couple of things for my apartment already (i know i'm kind of jumping the gun seeing as i havent even gotten the apartment yet). My dad got $45 in Kohls cash last week. If you dont know what that is, every so often Kohls has a week where if you spend $50 you get $10 in Kohls cash, and my dad earned $45. I use this to get somet things.

I got lucky and found these glasses on clearance for $15 (originally $40). They were marked down cause the set was missing 2 of the small glasses, which didnt bother me any, i'm still getting 6.

I also got a cute set of salt and pepper shakers for $3, originally $15 (i think). I couldnt find a picture of them but they kinda look like fish, even though i have a feeling they were going for that. And i got a paper towel holder, nothing special but i need it.

I've asked my family for a couple of the things I need. I asked my grandma if she still needed an idea for me to get me a microwave and I asked my parents to get me a pot and pan set. This is the set I want, It literally comes with everything and its only $40.

Well I'm really hoping I come into some money soon, I just dont know how.