This girl did.
So heres what I had planned:
I was going to go to Springfield this weekend and lay everything out there, do the whole romantic movie thing and do everything i could to get him back. But then he called me Monday night and I've became really worried about him. So I woke up Tuesday, got dressed, packed a bag just in case, got in my car and drove. I went down there because i was worried about him and wanted to see him, and I thought he might like a visit. I went back in forth in my head on weither i should try and get him back, and I was going to do it....but i didnt.
I brought it up while we were talking just to see what he would say, and he said it would have made everything akward and he eventually said it wouldnt be the right time. So I had apparently missed it. To me honest, i thought just me showing up spur of the moment would have been really romantic, but i guess it wasnt. Sure I had played out in my head that maybe he would come running to me and kiss me or something, but I knew that wouldnt happen. He ended up leaving around 8:30 to go to this study group with the club he is in....and i drove 2 1/2 hours back home.
Luckily, he was really suprised and liked the visit. When i left I felt a super embarrased and dumb, but he said I shouldnt be and that it was really nice to see me. I was also embarrased thinking he might ask me to stay the night... but I didnt tell him that.
I just cant believe that that was it, nothing happened. But I did want to make sure he was ok, I care about him to much not to.
that was a really nice thing you did for kenny. but i am pissed you didnt come see me!!!!
ReplyDeletebut seriously, i know this might sound harsh, but you need to worry about you. i understand that there's no way you can just stop caring for kenny, and i don't expect you to (that would be impossible!) but now is your time to focus on you. it is completely possible to be happy while single.do things you've been wanting to do for forever. work on getting a job and getting in to a school. pick up a friend and go see all the st.louis schools you're considering. i wish i could be there so we could have a slumber party with a ouija board and eat ice cream and stay up all night talking about stupid stuff, or if i could just be there to call and make sure you're okay and take you out if you're not.
i believe in you taletha. what you're going through is tough as balls but you're going to get through it. if you guys are meant to be, it will happen--there's no use worrying about it. do things you want or like to do, and get your life moving towards the place you want it to be.
we're totally hanging out when i move home.
love you. call me or text me if you need anything at all. even if you just want to talk.