I cant believe I havent heard from you yet....I seriously thought I would have heard from you by now....but no nothing. No call, no text, not even a message on facebook or messenger.
I'm dieing to talk to you, i figured you would be too. Who knows maybe you are, i just thought you would actually talk to someone if your dieing to do it and if you miss them and love them.
I'm sure some people are thinking why dont you just talk to him? Well I feel like its's his turn to talk to me. But it seriously driving me crazy that he hasnt said anything to me.
I cant help but think thats he is ok. That him telling me that he was going to miss me, crying and saying he's never going to see me again was all an act, that he was actually happy for me to be gone. I'm sure he's not ok, but i still have these thoughts in my head. I'm also driving myself crazy wondering what he is doing, who's he with, whats he thinking?
I know with time it will pass....but i seriously have lost the love of my life and my best friend. I want him back more than anyone knows. I really dont think i'm going to find anyone as good as him, i feel like if we never get back together that i'll have to settle on someone who's 2nd best.
I'm sorry for all this sappy sad stuff, but i'm afraid this is all everyone going to get for awhile.
I know exactly how you're feeling. Really, I do. But you can't let yourself think that your entire happiness depends on this one guy. Even if he does turn out to be "the one" in the end, thinking you could never love someone as much as him will only harm you in the long-run. Whether you guys get back together or stay broken up, you'll always feel insecure and dependent if you allow yourself to think this way.
ReplyDeleteMy advice? Focus on things that aren't dependent of anyone else. It could be anything from empowering aspirations to simple hobbies that make you feel at peace. For me it's both. I focus hard on school as a step towards obtaining my dream of becoming an editor for Cosmo. (Hey, a girl can dream, can't she?) And when I'm home alone at night, I find pleasure in curling up with a good book I can get lost in. I HAVE to recommend you read "The Art of French Kissing" by Kristin Harmel. It is utter chick-lit, but I saw you liked "Good In Bed" so I have no doubt you will be in love with this one. If you read it, you'll understand why I recommend it to you. It's extremely relevant to your situation.
Sorry if I got too personal... but hey, that's what blogging is for, right?