So I've definently hit rock bottom. I'm miserable, i cant stop crying, my eyes are swollen and I hurt all over. I found out yesterday that Kenny had a date Wednesday night. I'm taking this new worse than the actual break up. I just cant believe that he has already moved on and is dating people. I havent even given dating others a thought.
I took some cups to him yesterday and started to panic while I was there. I just wanted him to say he had moved on and was over me and doesnt love me anymore. But all he would say was he doesnt know and he's in a weird place. Yes, i know he has every right to to date cause were not together but it hurts, I've never felt this before.
His friend told me he's not sure whats going on with him regarding me and him but that I shouldnt give up just yet. He seemed kind of suprised when i told him i want to get back together, but i dont know. Its going to take me awhile to move on, so i wont be giving up in one day but i can only wait for so long.
Alcohol will be friend this weekend.
Hang in there. Try to remember why you broke up in the first place, and list reasons why you're better off without him. I know how bad it hurts to find out he's dating other girls, but that doesn't always mean that he's "moved on." Sometimes they force themselves to get out there just in the hopes that they'll stop thinking about you so much. Quit feeling sorry for yourself, and remember that your life doesn't revolve around someone who doesn't even want you as much as you want him. If he was worth even half of how you're feeling right now, he would be at your door with a bouquet of roses, begging for you back.
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