So I am so tired of Kenny misleading me, he has done it 3 times now. I am right back to where i started....i'm back to the way i was and was feeling when we first broke up.
So here what happened. Since he told me about him and this girl, i thought they hadnt seen each other since about 2 weeks ago. He was talking to me in class more, we were having good conversations. Last Friday I was heading over to his apartment to give him my notebook cause he had missed class and he suggested meeting at Chiptole cause he was hungry. So we met there and had dinner. After we ate we spent an hour and a half sitting there and talking. When we left I was a bit suprised he didnt ask to hang out (guess that should have been a hint). But he was going to Borders and I told him i was suprised he didnt ask to hang out, and he said that he thought id ask to go to borders with him. So that made me think, "hey, he doesnt want to hang out with me more", so i went to Borders with him. After Borders we parted ways which i was suprised again that he didnt ask to hang out at one of our apartments or something. Then when we left he said "You should call me sometime, i had fun"....i guess i felt like if he was still seeing someone he wouldnt have said that. So then Thursday I had plans to go out, i hadnt heard from her so i texted Kenny. I thought he might be nice and invite me out with him and his friends just to be nice. I ended up going out with my friend and got a little drunk, i sent him a fun text and he ignored it. So the next day in class I asked him about it, and he said he didnt think about it and that he was with some people. I also asked him why he wasnt nice and asked me to come out with him and his friends. And he said...."I would have but the girl i told you about was with us and i figured you wouldnt want to be there". WOW. I was stunned, i asked him if he was still seeing her and he said yes.
I was so pissed and hurt all at the same time. When he would tell me about his weekends, he made it sound like he was at his apartment alone doing nothing...but no she was with him. I told him about something I had done that i thought he would be jealous about....and it didnt phase him at all. I think thats what got me the most....cause that means he really has nothing left for me. I couldnt believe wasnt just a little upset.
The next day I got on facebook and he had a song lyric as his status that was of course about her....and immediatly deleted him. I cant stand seeing that stuff, especially when those status use to be about me. I had bagged up some things he got me, and when i went to work i threw them away, i was going to donate them but i was mad/upset. He has a picture fram that i left at the apartment cause it had a picture of me and him in it and i thought it might make him miss me when he saw it (is that bad?). I told him I want it back, texted him today and we got into a fight over a table I had left him. All i wanted was to see if he would be concerned for me and I wanted to talk to someone and he was the one i wanted to talk to.
I just dont know why I am the one who is still hurting. He moved on so quickly....and i'm so shocked. I think i moved back to Springfield to soon....i think i should have stayed in Union. I dont know anyone down here and i have a hard time making friends.
Chelsey how did you do it?
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